If It Meant Heaven Was Free

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We may have lost the battle, but it feels like we lost the war.
And if there’s hope or happiness to cling to, then I’m not so sure
where to find it, but I know it’s not on this bathroom floor.
All the dog hair, piss and vomit, I have already explored.

How much whiskey do you think
I would have to drink
to drown everything inside of me?
Because I’m sick of waking up
with this pang deep in my gut
that says nothing will ever be what it should be.

We may have lost the safety, but it feels like we lost the love.
Let’s not lie. Hope or happiness was never ours all along.
We thought we’d built something great:
Babel or Babylon.
We rise from the rubble as what we discovered we came for all along.

How much whiskey do you think
I would have to drink
to drown all the darkness in me?
Because I’m sick of waking up
with this pang deep in my gut
that says I’ve never really ever tried to be

The change that I needed to see
in this shit-splattered outhouse we call “love”
and rest in our own peace.
We let this happen.
We didn't love enough.
We didn’t do enough.
We didn’t mobilize.
Let’s get our shit together.

We may have lost the battle, but let’s not give up the war.
There’s no hope left to cling to but what we bleed out of our pores.

How much whiskey do you think
I would have to drink
to drown all the good things in me?
Because I’m not so sure
a good soul means a thing anymore.
And I’d go to hell if it meant heaven was free.

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from Desire Paths, released February 16, 2018

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